Tommorow is my school day-😀
Bro, I am absolutely nervous. Okay, okay, I'm grade 8 now, first day of school tommorow, 29th of August. Sweating so had rn, yet at the same time kind of excited aswell.
Mostly overthinking about Math☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️
Planning to also contact my PC repairer to ask how in the world am I gonna connect that dang PC to the internet. Wouldn't really be a weird thing to do so because the repairer is close to my father, and also knows me too.
Either way, wishing myself this school year will be great. Looking forward ahead, last year was alright, had my own ups and downs, lefts and rights. Managed to be one of the honor students!! (Despite the struggle of procastination, laziness, poor memory, couldn't understand Math, overthinking ☠️) Hurrayyyyyyyyyy-😭
Hopefully this one will be the same, or better :D
HONOR STUDENTS???? BIG HUGE DOPE DUDE, IM SO PROUD OF U WATFFFFF XDD
ReplyDeleteITS OKAY DUDE,BEING NERVOUS IS NORMAL. YOU'LL BE ALRIGHT, ILL BE SO PROUD OF U EVEN IF U THINK YOU DONT DESERVE GRATITUDE I LOVE U MAAN TAKE CARE
ReplyDeleteits completely ok to be nervous for coming back to school again, just remember there are many people who love you and support you and appreciate your existence (ur friends, me, and khiem :3) You're d best dude!!!!! I love u !!!!! TAKE CAAAR
ReplyDeleteAwwwwww! Thanks man! Although school has been getting on my head lately, these comments of yours really comforts me.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I LOVE YOU TOOO!!! TAKE CARE!!!
I feel more ready now with my school stuff XD
thanks man!👌💪👊👊
Wish you great school years!!!
ReplyDeleteBeing honest, school is already tough for me rn- not so-so bright. Maybe I just overthink too much and it isn't really too bad since I'm in a science highschool with standards that NEEDS to be met..Or else I'm going to get kicked out and be transferred up their main highschool campus.
ReplyDeletePlus aswell me being surrounded by very smart classmates can really crush my confidence down, it's like an average person trying to blend in with genuises. With all the new environment I'm still trying to get used to. Added with a sprinkle of...Lets just say procastination, and not fitting in since all the way I first got in up this school at grade 7-
And I easily lose motivation alot, get all distracted and realise that I've f>cked up in the end. It's so hard to focus with all the work when you prefer to do other things, so it takes me too long to do things that could've just tooked me a few minutes. Especially as my parents have a sleeping schedule on me. Can't even get to sleep in my own bedroom because my parents wont allow it.
ReplyDeleteComparison to litteraly all my classmates in this class is really haunting me right now, and I'd consider myself as a very weird student here, I don't relate to anyone except my one only classmate friend whom which I'm always with in school because sometimes I feel scared when left alone in a class I couldn't fit in to. I'm weird, which ofcourse ends me up not being so popular. Even though I'm pretty much as extroverted as I could get.
Although I did get to honors, it's very difficult. My memory is cleary bad and I feel so stupid, my day is ruined when I get low scores and my other classmates managed to get a high score. To the point I started questioning my own self.
Atleast now it's not as worse as the past witj comparison, but there's still a bit of tingling stress and sadness.
ReplyDeleteJesus christ, I didn't expect myself to be saying all this, am I really this desperate for comfort?
That's why remember when you said these specific words to me? "But seriously, you are good enough, numbers don't define anyone or anywho, all it matters you're here; you tried your best, you tried your hardest, and you're perfect because you did good enough. and you are good."
ReplyDeleteThat hit me straight from the chest. I sound all dramatic, but It really helped cope alot, not just in school but in all my overthinking too, kinda one of my life motto now. Seriously, thank you.
I feel inferior sometimes. But I guess I'm still enough because I tried.
ReplyDeleteMaybe one of the reasons why I feel like this is because back when I was in primary school, I always had everyone admiring on me.
ReplyDeleteI was the best at drawing in the whole school, is one of the top students up my whole class, my mother was a teacher too in that school until now and so I was obviously popular too because of that , I'm one of the most known students in that school.
I never actually did most of the schoolwork myself sometimes because I was so lazy, so it's either my parents helping me or the paid tutor, I was childlish + immature. Plus aswell I even didn't care of studying subjects at all that time and so I forgot some stuff that could have helped me alot right now in my subjects.
Now, pretty much It's like being teleported into a new world you're not used to experiencing. Thanks to so much "trying to fit in" stuff I did back the earlier me in this current highschool I'm in, I've hurted myself a ton.
Sorry if I'm saying all this and suddenly dumping it on you. I really hope you will have great school years, because I love you.
Have great days ahead!🫶
Thank you for all your kind words, It always brings a smile to me.
ReplyDeleteFor some reason, just some thought but at the same time I'm kinda thankful I experienced all these struggles. I learned and I matured.
ReplyDeleteIf it weren't for all these, trust me, I will be completely different from what I am now.
Possibly could have experienced things more worse than this due to lack of experience in life.
ReplyDeleteSo I'm happy I chosed this school at the same time despite struggles. I learned and I grew to who I am today, even if I'm imperfect.
That's all! I love you once agian!!
ReplyDeleteThank you.🫶
ReplyDelete--Like again saying this because you're not alone, hope you don't see me bringing my experiences as selfish, but i just wanna let u know you're not alone and because I love you, but let me know it feels like I'm making it "Only me" selfish kind of thing in this situation. Because OBVIOSULY YHIS IS ABOUT YOU AND I LOVE YOU BRO and I just thought usually it's okay to empathize people but you know, theres a thing where you cross the line. And just askin respectfully, tell me though if i sound like I'm selfish! I won't be mad, and I wanna make sure I care about you and not cross your sadness. back in context, lack of motivation due to many things you wanna do, yes it can be really bad for deadlines like assignments, work and stuff. but from what you're feeling, it's okay to feel that way. it's like wanting to be teleported where all your issues/work is finished already, and that's completely okay! when studying, try writing it down, make a mind map (I do think this is helpful in my opinion) if its history, it can be the same thing. make a mind map where did the event take place, why it happened, and the other 2 W's question ( what, who) and sometimes ask yourself some questions about the subject or search some question in the world wide web about the sub your learning so that when you answer it wrong, you know the answer and you can try again. I can explain more if u want, HOPEFULLY THIS MADE SENSE. But remember take a good amount of rest and hydrate because that's what makes you remember the important things you studied about, Vitamins slap too! no idea why all vitamins improve your memory from what i searched but all we know vitamins have benefits. But being forgetful, lack motivs, is okay. At least try to study for a bit everyday, and watch those educational vids! but I do understand why you lack motivation though, you wanna do other fun things you really enjoy and anything that's not boring. but I'm sure you're aware that those boring things are important, veggies, vitamins, is important for our physical growth. meanwhile studies are important for our brain growth i guess. But am I saying that studying >>> our lives? Well, Nah. This is just an advice, and some sharing metaphor i guess. I'm bad at comforting and giving advices, but i wanna be at least useful at once a week LMFOAO. Anyways, the whole point of this is just I wanna make sure to help you in some cases you're struggling and--
DeleteAHHHHHH!!! That's a long message full of support!!! I don't know what else to say about this, but thank you!!🫶
DeleteYou make me feel more better about myself, and I'm happy I've got a supportive friend like you!!! Thank you for comforting me dude!! I really appreciate all this. ♥️
You're not selfish and I completely relate with everything, makes me feel less alone now.
Thank you, like seriously thank you for all of this, it really makes me feel better and more comfortable with my own feelings.
I love you man!!!!!!! Like seriously!!! You're trully a best friend and I'm very happy you're still here along with me!!!
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
Everything makes sense don't worry by the way, I understood what you meant!!!!!!
DeleteThank youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!
I'll make sure to bring all these back to you, I'll keep those words, you're a great friend and there's NOTHING that will ever change that. I seriously AGGRESSIVELY APPRECIATE ALL THIS THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!
And for all your support, just thank you, like THANK YOU!!!! IT GIVES ME ALL RELIEF. YOU'RE THE BEST, SERIOUSLY.
ReplyDeleteThis all in seriousness hits me, you're too sweet man. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteI just seriously want to cry rn, in a more happy way thougj WHAHAHHAHAHAH!
ReplyDeleteBecause of you, it felt like thousands of weight being lifted off my shoulders. My mind is going crazy in all places on how to return these kindness from you, even if I know both of us are suffering too in different ways, thank you for all this, I really appreciate your existence and that's the truth to appreciate. Thank you.
ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE TRIED TO COMFORT SOMEONE, So I'm glad I can help someone I really love!!! you can cry if you feel like it, it won't made me think any changes of you. you're just a human being with natural feelings and response, and I do think you're lovable!!! :DD
DeleteALL SAME TO YOU BUDDY!! I actually relate with that like wtf, goodness are we long lost siblings or somethin?
DeleteAnyway, thank you! I find you ALSO VERY VERY LOVABLE, AMAZING, RESILLIENT, COOL, ADMIRABLE, INSPIRING...
You name it!
Thank you!!!
DONT FORGET U R TOO.
DeleteNever will forget that, and never will forget that you're the same too!!
DeleteThis makes me feel way more confident now about myself, it's like that feeling where you just don't care about shit in this world anymore, because I've got myself and I'm ready. You've hitted straight to the bull's eye with your words, and I thank you for every single one of it that I'm going CRAZY on how to return these to you, and i don't care whatevs, I WILL return these to you. Because it's also with the same reason, and it's three words but one meaning,
ReplyDeleteI love you.
I'm getting all poetic agian WHAHAHHAHA!!! But you deserve that I WILL be a stubborn-head just to remind you that you do.
You're the best, and I love you.
POETIC WHATEVA, Be yoself. Im so so happy 2 see you laik dis, its so awesum and heart warming. Like, I'm genuinely so happy rn!!! IM happy bceuase I made you happy, Like, How cool is that????
DeleteI do get what u mean, and Im so glad i made you feel like that. I love u 4eva xD. RETURN OR NOT I LOVE U STILL DO
DeleteAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!! you're dang sweet. TYHANK CHUUUU!!!!
DeleteIluvU4eva2!!!!!
Expect me to re-read these messages all agian to appreciate and remind myself everyday, because that's definitely something I would do.
ReplyDeleteYOU DO YOU DUDE, I LOVE U MAN T_TTTT
DeleteEYYYYYYY!!! THANK YOUUUU!!!!♥️
DeleteI LOVE YOU TOO MAN!!!
DeleteTHANK YOUUUUUUU!!!!!
ReplyDeleteBRROOOOO YOURE SWEET AS A CHERRY RIGHT NOW, I FEEL HAPPY NOW THAT YOU'RE HAPPY YOU'RE DA BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hauhuaduahu IM smiling infront of my screen, you just love to make me the happiest, I also love to make u the happiest!!! I love seeing you being yourself so be you and do you!!! I love you with an incredible amount!!!
ReplyDeleteAHHAHAHAAAAHAHAH!!! WE NEED TO BOTH GO TO THE MENTAL ASAYLUM, WE'RE SMILING LIKE MANIACS ON OUR SCREENS
DeleteEITHER WAY,
THANK YOU FOR ALL THIS!!! YOU'RE ALSO THE BEST!!! and too sweet wtf
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IM HAVINH A F>CKING SEIZURE I'M GOING VRAZY
anyway *ahem* (☠️☠️)
I LOVE YOU TOOOOO992929283938
I have too much thoughts that i want to say to you rn, but It's incredibly hard to go one by one, I'll just say these two things, thank you and I love you!♥️
LOVE U MOREEE
DeleteYOURE SO WELCOME I LOVE UD UDE
DeleteGod I'm going crazy, Here's your crown 👑 you dropped it
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